Whats going on...?

This is the first day of my life, when I can say: I need time... I can see my future in front of me, and I know myself at all... But thats all.. Its a weird feeling, because not to know everything,.. well thats just better.. and I didnt know it before... Life 's too fast around me, and I feel old (but Im not..xD).. Its changeing every time, I mean nearly every week.. Something which seems so small, but these things are not as small.. They are important... They're driveing my way.. The music in my head stopped today for a while, and I dont understand why...?! And its not how it should be.. Beacuse I feel alone... Maybe I just need time to relax, and fix my mind... And I will need help...